So I used to be the Crying Wolf as the blog address said. I used to be miserable, sensitive and an open book. My family hurts me and they happen to treat me like shit more and more often. I used to care. And I used to cry. But I've decided to change that. From now on no one has an impact on how I feel. Where did this big change come from? You'd be surprised but I've watched "Kick-Ass 2" yesterday and Hit-Girl has become my role model. It came the time when I don't only silently admire the characters I like, but also actually let their best qualities inspire me to change something in my personality.
So the blog address is now being-badasss.blogspot.com because that's what I plan to write here - a diary of life without sharing your problems with others. We'll see how I'm gonna cope with being a badass. We'll see if I can become one.
Today I got threatened very bad by my grandma and my mother (who is here in Poland just for 5 days and after that she's gonna come back London to leave me for another year. Yet she treats me like shit).
I tried to hard to be calm and collected, but I cried a little at the end. The first thing I wanted to was to go to my neighbor and cry on her shoulder. I didn't. I came home, turned on my laptop and opened the blog. Somehow I feel better now. And now I am proud of myself I didn't seek for help.
I try not to care, and not to think to deeply of what my fam have told me. I'll make do. Even if they don't give back the money I lent them. Even if I have to do all the things by myself. Even if they think I'm crazy and should be put in mental hospital. I'll survive. And I will love myself for not asking for help.
